Burn Out or Fade Away

Warning - not cheerful

To bring you up to speed.

Last year I had some back problems that saw me laid up fro almost 3 weeks (not quite long enough for short term disability), therefore, I have not had an actual vacation in almost 2 years.

I got married in September and that was an awesome experience, but also, a lot of work and some considerable stress.

In November I began to have back issues (again). I went to the doctor, I went to the Chiropractor, they both agreed that the yoga I was doing was a good thing and to keep that up, or even do more of it...Ok..Done...Still not better...Fast Forward 3 months.

Still in pain, back at the doctor, got better anti-inflamitory medication, and a round of x-rays- AND told that as the problem clearly is not muscular, that I should cease the yoga as "it is probably doing you more harm than good" >GREAT<. Xrays are back, absolutely no info there, which means I need an MRI before they can tell if a surgical solution is the answer.

So, in the meantime, I am doing EVERYTHING that I am supposed to do, and other than the Physiotherapy that I start tomorrow, there is nothing more I can do...but wait...for the next test, which will likely lead to another wait...for the surgery...then the recovery...JEEZ

Also, the new medication is hard on the stomach (very), so my options are to not take the drugs (and bein agonizing pain), or to take the drugs and be in constant (not as agonizing pain) but struggle to not throw up for about 12 hours a day.

So far I have been married for just over 4 months, 3 of which I have been (a-hem), celibate.
Because, we tried to, a couple of times, but it is just too damn painful.

I need this to be over, I am so tired, so burnt out, and so completely BORED of feeling like this.