Burn Out or Fade Away

Warning - not cheerful

To bring you up to speed.

Last year I had some back problems that saw me laid up fro almost 3 weeks (not quite long enough for short term disability), therefore, I have not had an actual vacation in almost 2 years.

I got married in September and that was an awesome experience, but also, a lot of work and some considerable stress.

In November I began to have back issues (again). I went to the doctor, I went to the Chiropractor, they both agreed that the yoga I was doing was a good thing and to keep that up, or even do more of it...Ok..Done...Still not better...Fast Forward 3 months.

Still in pain, back at the doctor, got better anti-inflamitory medication, and a round of x-rays- AND told that as the problem clearly is not muscular, that I should cease the yoga as "it is probably doing you more harm than good" >GREAT<. Xrays are back, absolutely no info there, which means I need an MRI before they can tell if a surgical solution is the answer.

So, in the meantime, I am doing EVERYTHING that I am supposed to do, and other than the Physiotherapy that I start tomorrow, there is nothing more I can do...but wait...for the next test, which will likely lead to another wait...for the surgery...then the recovery...JEEZ

Also, the new medication is hard on the stomach (very), so my options are to not take the drugs (and bein agonizing pain), or to take the drugs and be in constant (not as agonizing pain) but struggle to not throw up for about 12 hours a day.

So far I have been married for just over 4 months, 3 of which I have been (a-hem), celibate.
Because, we tried to, a couple of times, but it is just too damn painful.

I need this to be over, I am so tired, so burnt out, and so completely BORED of feeling like this.

MEME

Take 5 of your favourite songs
Randomly decide which songs are 1-5
Look up their lyrics
For song 1 type the first line of the song, for song 2, the second line and so on.

Do not reference the song, but post all 5 lines.

Tag others on an as needed basis.


I don't want to waste my time sleeping
Let me talk to 'em
Well have to wait and see
these people downtown
Did you have a good time?

22 things about the Great Grey Eyed One

I am human
I like sad songs
I dislike sad movies
I work in research
I wish I was researching people
I believe that “clarity is the homage that words pay to ideas”
-R. Hand
I am married
I do not have children
I do have one psychotic cat, of whom I have no pictures
I love garlic
I hate celery
I am an only child
If I were a tree I wood kill myself
I like puns
I am not arrogant enough to be an atheist
I have been studying astrology since I was 19, but I do not live my life by it, I just find it interesting
I am an excellent cook
I hate cleaning floors (this includes sweeping, mopping and vacuuming)
Most of what I read is non fiction
My handwriting is very messy, but I do not have any trouble reading it, nor do I have trouble reading other people’s “chicken scratch”
I am competitive
I like double numbers, especially 22 and 77, but my favourite numbers are 4 and 8.

More of the same.

To expand upon my lst post, while I was not an avid blogger on my previous JournalSpace Sucks account, I had been posting for almost four years.

Four years of posts that I did not back up...a little funny, a little sad.

Somehow it is worse than having writting destroyed by fire or flood, somehow it is worse because it was not a personal act of vengence toward me, but rather a suspected act of revenge on the part of a person who felt wronged...WTF did I ever do to you (unknown former Journal Space Employee)!

I have learned though, if I write anything I deem worth keeping...I will save it somewhere safe.

Journal Space Sucks

Lost my old blog...that is why I have chosen this title.